Sober

I have tried to look beyond the horizon over and over, but never was i able to find what's in store for me. Every step that I took to understand the path that I was walking on, felt meaningless. I push myself too hard to reach the point where I can see my future. But again, its all meaningless. Of Lately, I have been following a lifestyle which I would never have opted if I was asked to last year. Its like, I am working hard to live a life which I detested. I am losing my identity and turning into some kind of a heartless inhuman monster. I have reached a crossroad and I am apprehensive to make my choice. I am no longer the person I used to be a few years back. This is not me, and I don't want this stranger to take any decisions in my life, which could possibly impact my future. I just want this person to 'Be Gone', even if that results in my nonexistence.